The title refers to the result of 1/68th converted to a decimal. Why 1/68? Because that’s how I feel at the moment. It represents the fact that I feel like, due to Covid, I’ve “lost” 1 year out of my current 68.
While that may not seem like a lot, and in fact, if you look at the decimal and it does seem insignificant. One penny (rounded of course), something that most people simply walk over if they see it on the street [even before being afraid to pick up something someone else touched without sanitizing], you have to put it in the perspective of the “cradle-grave timeline”….the closer you get to the right side of said timeline, the more quickly it goes and the more you feel it. The further you move along that line, the more you appreciate Warren Zevon telling Dave Letterman when he was asked about what he learned knowing his time was short, “Enjoy every sandwich”.
Some things that are lost, like time, cannot be recovered. It is really now, much further down the timeline, that I thought I’d have the opportunity to be selfish and grab onto all the experiences and things that “life” put up obstacles for. Yet, here we are…is there a glimmering light ahead, yes, most certainly, but that doesn’t help at the moment, if anything it makes it a bit harder to take.
I‘m a creature of habit, I shudder sometimes leaving my comfort zone, yet my incredible wife has spent many years gently (and sometimes not so gently) prodding me to open up and follow the path the universe puts out there. Well, Mr./Ms.Mrs. Universe…what exactly IS your plan at the moment? Asking for a friend…..
Meantime, a current favorite song is by Dawes…”When My Time Comes”….the recovering catholic in me particularly appreciates one particular line…(bold faced here so you don’t miss it)…
Some of said lyrics….
“So I took what I wanted
And put it out of my reach
I wanted to pay for my successes
With all my defeats
And if Heaven was all
That was promised to me
Why don’t I pray for death?”
ENJOY EVERY SANDWICH FOLKS…I’M TRYING…
Kevin Fitzpatrick, Dr. Neil Floch’s gastric sleeve patient with over 180 lb. weight loss